okay i'm feeling indulgant. i will blog. am really glad the exams are here because it marks the end of 12 years of education, the first 8 of which were painfully boring, the next three being much more colourful and last two being the most interesting, busy, despite the many blows on my self esteem and the over-load of r-ff---ian competitiveness (of which I know I added to myself), well, i suppose the net outcome is pretty positive. it's also very convenient to have so many smart friends during this period. like kelly who is a lit dispenser and dan&joel who are math/hist/everything encyclopedias and the plenty of others who gave not academic help but helped to keep things relatively colored at a time that could be particularly dull.

I have been going out almost every day for the past couple weeks because as we all know I hate where I live. it sometimes makes me think I'm wasting time travelling yet... I dunno how much I'd study on my own anywhere. the company's been nice. despite smelly pens and wasted time and sad lack of money now... i can't wait till this is over. two more weeks. two more weeks then we'll all be ex-classmates.