when i checked my mail earlier, i found something from a senior of mine (xinhui, for the hissoc rgs people) regarding her new contact information- i haven't talked to her since rmun, and heard from tseyang that she'd got her psc scholarship a few months ago. anyhow, she's at st edmund's in oxford now, which is close to where i want to get to (trinity, in the same university) so that put my own ambitions in mind.

i've done about a quarter of what she has, which is quite demoralising to realise actually, but it's a bit of a nudge in the ribs- other people have made it, they've made it to that horizon we're all looking to and, well, there's nothing to stop me from getting there myself. i refuse to look any lower than that future i can make for myself, and i will start by gettting through this stack of imperialism stuff.

we don't pay you for the power of your dreams. get to it, people! =D