I was clearing out my e-mail box and found that the bulk of it was from my dad. Was about to delete them but then pangs of sentimentality suddenly appeared and prevented that. wanted to print out the e-mails first, sorta like a documentation of my communication with family but RI boarding doesn't have a functioning printer. I dunno.... I guess we take forgranted the things we talk to family about. If I were still staying with mine I wont think twice about documenting my life with them, unlike the way I've always very conscientiously documented most of what I do and feel about other people or things. Perhaps it makes more sense for me to record these things (than you guys?) since I generally communicate through e-mail and therefore there is less of the mundane, no-need-to-record things like "what's for lunch?" In other words, the content of my interaction with them is of more substance than it would be if I interact with them every single day. Which do -you- think is better? Staying with or without family?

Having stayed on my own I must say I wouldn't give up this life ever. It's convenient, not having to make your decisions based on someone else. And as much as this is wierd, it is actually rewarding to send your own clothes to the washing machine and drier. I mean, every time I do laundry I have to wait for 26 minutes for the wash then I have to troop down to the laundry room and transfer everything to the drier and wait another 45 minutes before I troop down again to collect the clothes. Yet, doing this has given me a greater sense of satisfaction and fulfillment then previously when I sent everything to the laundry service provided. I suppose when I put on my uniform in the morning it feels more like -my- uniform since I'm the only one who has any dealings with it. Granted, it may usually be rumpled since I am usually too lazy to iron but I dunno... it's all me. Everything I am is because of what -i- do and not because of what others have done for me. It's a good feeling. self reliance.

My uncle (who is now an incredibly rich doctor in OZ) was 'yanked' away from his village (he came from one of those up river) and has regreted it since then. I dunno why. Maybe coz he was yanked to some sarawak school which isn't too great. I heard they have fish head curry for every other meal in Sarawakian/Malaysian boarding schools. I guess I've been lucky then... coz my experience has generally been quite rosy. For that, I actually -do- feel a sense of gratitude to Singapore which I am very likely to want to repay someday (u see? It isn't all a waste to educate youngsters like me). mm... musings. at this point, my first encounter with singapore floods back. as it always does. it helps me keep things in perspective, because there is always a point to which I tie back the way I view things now... easier for comparison and evaluation's sake.

Also, I've realised that the further we come from our secondary schools the more we sentimentalise our experiences there and become more 'loyal' to them. Therefore I think it important to always have a stand on any experience we have.. to prevent this 'sentimentalisation' of reality just coz the truth has become blurred. I will always enjoy the luxurious and high-flying lifestyles of MG girls. Enjoy being surrounded by people rish enough to have little cares about the world. Everyone was -happy-. Little worries see? It was definitely a good life. Yet, I remain dead set against the administration who made my life not-quite-hell but really sore and bul-shitty at times. I remain dead-set against those who condescended me and tried to put me in my place... unlike RJ where despite the lack of action with regards to our concerns (for now) they treat us with the respect I think is due to all people. Also, I must -must- remind myself to insult other people's secondary schools less since not everyone will be as disinterested about this topic as me.


shoojee: sortta feel disinclined to have a briefing in person. as in, physically meeting up somewhere because I don't want to give anyone more trouble than absolutely necessary... so was actually thinking of sending out these things through e-mail.. perhaps through a mailing list? What thinks you? Oh and what do you mean by overlap of performances? It's okay wad... isn't it? Coz it's not like passersby will stand there throughout the day? Yea, let me know wad u think the briefing shd entail...

Note to everyone: I wanna go buy books at Bras basah if anyone wants to go maybe we can set up a date? Decide here if more than one wants to go? If not you can just message me. They have VERY cheap books there.. and I think they're all new too. The impression I've been getting (from mel tan and katz and a number of others) is that u get books like Geir Lundestad for only $3 etc etc! Me thinks they have lit books etc too since it's unlikely there is such a thing as a history book shop?